Yogis,
Have you ever noticed how a holiday seems like a big pause
button on the remote control of life? Before a holiday, life ramps up,
trying to squeeze both our regular responsibilities and the preparations all in
the same 24 hour days. But then it arrives…….and everything pauses. It is
like the gap between breaths. The space between words. A time of
veering off the trail .
During a holiday like Thanksgiving, we step back. The
to do list drops away. Work seems like a distant memory. We sleep
late, eat what we crave, and do whatever we feel like….often with a lot of
togetherness. It is a time of becoming present. Being in the moment
without much concern for the past or the future. Just being.
Selecting what to do next not by what you should do, but what you feel like
doing. It’s as if the world will just wait.
And I had a second layer of pausing piled on, like the
whipped cream on the pumpkin pie ……I was still sick for most of the holiday. It
dragged me back to the pure physical-ness of walking through life in this human
body. Aware of each discomfort. I realized that illness
also is a form of stopping. I didn’t run for two weeks, and only
practiced yoga a few times throughout. So this Wednesday I finally
gave in and visited a clinic to get antibiotics, and found myself diligent in
not exerting. The “me” who always wants to do, help and give, had to
rest. Had to surrender. Even sending out my vibration was too
exhausting so I just allowed the Universe’s hum to soak in as comfort. I
personally did many things I never do in my daily life – watched tv, ate rich
foods, and sat on the couch for hours on end. At one point we watched 3
back to back episodes of “The Big Bang Theory”, just because it was one of my
sister-in-laws favorites – and because we could.
When we pause we notice and become more aware. And
what we see or experience may be pleasing, annoying or even
uncomfortable. During the pause of holidays, or being sick, there can be
just as many moments of wanting to soak it all in, as there can be of wishing
you could run away as fast as you can. We see everything, including our
own lives, our likes and dislikes, our hot buttons, and our vulnerabilities,
exactly as they are. This is what mindfulness is all about.
Being with it all.
But tomorrow the play button will be pushed, and life will
pick up right where we left it. Work will be there and I will dive back
into my running and yoga. Like coming out of a cocoon. Making our
way back onto the trail. But is it possible to bring a piece of this pause
with us (perhaps without the green bean casserole and stuffing) so that we
don’t become removed from all that is here?
Today I bundled up and walked down to the river to just
sit. And sit I did for ½ hour, quieting my mind and letting the world
pour in. And I realized that this is a pause that I do weekly. The
day up to that point, and the walk down are filled with activity. But
then I just stop. Completely stop. And when an inner voice tells me
I am done, I express gratitude, and then hit the play button of life. But
I enter back in with a calm and a broader view. We all need these pauses,
and not just at times of big events, holidays and illness.
So what is your pause button in daily life? And do you
hit it often enough?
Pausing to notice,
SARAH
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