Sunday, October 30, 2016

......the election

Yogis,

As the election begins to draw to a close, I reflect.  I felt the tension in the air, saw the worry so heavy on those around me, heard the harsh words and tasted the bitterness.  But as with everything in this journey of life there is another side.  The teaching and growth that inevitably comes from a challenge.  Even from this one…….

“Hate” was a word so casually thrown around these last several months.  We uncovered within ourselves, our country and our world the divisions that still remain among us.  Color, gender, religion, economic status, appearance.  So deeply rooted that we must keep unearthing and shining a light on each of them, for hate grows from fear, and fear revels in the dark.  Every action we take, every word we speak comes from one of two wells buried deep within……love and fear.  Only when we draw them to the surface – when we voice them out loud - can fear be calmed and love wrap its arms around it.  The election did the digging and shone some mighty spotlights providing us the gift of seeing.  Resist the urge to bury them back down.  Let’s step closer and look.

During this same time the new African American History museum was unveiled in DC.  I have listened to those who have visited. Whites, for once in the minority, as they travel together with those of color, witnessing our combined history. From the early days of slavery to our current president….yet we have so far to go.  Fear of differences.  Fear of the unknown.  Let’s step closer and look into each other’s eyes. 

A video arrives in my path that highlights the greed we all have for more, which must be fed with oil.  The Native Americans desperately trying once again to keep their ground sacred as bulldozers clear the path to make way for the Dakota pipeline.  “It's about our rights as native people to this land. It's about our rights to worship. It's about our rights to be able to call a place home, and it's our rights to water.”  Friday I see we are arresting them.  Instead we should be embracing them as their elders hold much wisdom on honoring the earth.  Another unveiling. Let’s step closer to listen. 

And because one of the candidates happens to be a woman, I watched as the continued, yet often unconscious stifling of women was brought to the forefront.  Interruptions, analysis of her appearance and whether she smiles enough. Not only by men……no we do it to each other as well.  Yet here we sit at the brink of change.  Excitement for some and fear for many others.  Fear showing its face as hate.  No longer discussed behind the curtain but out in the world for all to see.  Instead of pushing it away, let’s step even closer to feel that.   

Perhaps the day will come where we can all be who we are without fear.  As a woman I have leaned into my femininity, letting go of the fear of being perceived as weak.  I welcome these raw discussions and rants we have all watched as they cause us to face what we believe.  What we then do with it is up to each of us.  I choose not to fear, but to live fully in my female power of intuition, of compassion, of sensuality, of creativity, of kindness because it is my strength…..not a weakness.  My birthright.
“Come down here so I can kill you, the man said to the moon, for you have stolen my wife. The moon laughed. Every woman is my wife first, he said. So in fact you stole this wife from me. This only made the man angrier and he climbed the tree to the highest branch and pulled at the raffia string. It would not move so he began to climb the string toward the moon. Soon his arms grew heavy and though he had climbed far from the tree he still was no closer to the moon. Let go now, the moon said. And the man, who had no more strength left, let go and fell directly into his canoe and paddled home to share his wife, as all men did, with the moon.” 

Let us all let go and share this incredible space we live in with each other.

Standing under the spotlight of the moon,
SARAH

Sunday, October 23, 2016

.....her arrival

Yogis,
It arrived.  I am not sure of the exact moment.  Perhaps it was while I slept.  But there is no mistake…….it has come.
Fall.

The calendar told us that fall began on September 21, but nature has her own calendar.  One that shifts and flows with her whims. But here on the east coast fall arrived and settled herself in over these last couple of days.

Thursday I was wearing a tank top, hair up and barefoot as I trimmed the garden. Today finds me in jeans, long sleeves and sneakers, as my feet sadly say goodbye to the earth for a while. The blanket has been put back on the bed and the wide open bedroom window has been lowered to a crack.

She rode in on the gusty winds.  Over one afternoon the car was blanketed in pine needles and the endless fall game of ‘pick up sticks’ began in earnest.  Natures pruning.  Leaves which were still deep green early this week suddenly became tinged with yellow, orange and scarlet…….a preview of what lies ahead.  Each step I take now crackles with dried leaves and acorn shells.  And each morning I find the piles of dirt dug out from my potted plants as the squirrels try to remember where the heck they hid those nuts. The pumpkin ales which have been on the shelves for several weeks now, finally appear appealing. 

One of my favorite experiences in the coming of fall are the dense flocks of blackbirds that migrate through my property. Hundreds, perhaps thousands arrive all at once darkening the sky.  Landing in the trees, shaking out the acorns. Squawking and flapping the noise is deafening. As soon as I hear them in the distance I run out to be in their midst.  It feels as if a cyclone has arrived. Then just as quickly they take off leaving behind a sense of quiet and emptiness. They know fall is here.

Fall is the drying season. You can see that clearly in the leaves and plants, but you can also feel it in your skin.  Time to bring back out the sesame and coconut oils to lather on.  The season to begin putting more warmth and substance into the diet. A move from raw to cooked, from light foods to those with substance. Stews and soups. Curries. An afternoon cup of tea. 

Oh, I almost forgot.  One more sure sign of the coming of fall (..ahem) is when these guys begin to rise from my mulch pile……………….no words necessary.
Fall is here.  I can hear, smell and taste her.  Welcome!

Butternut squash soup tonight,
SARAH

Sunday, October 16, 2016

......feeling life

Yogis,

I went.  I experienced.  I noticed.  I loved.  Greece.  Aaaaahhhhhhh………………..

I have spent these last few days in the firestorm of re-entry, feeling the tension slowly finding its way back into my shoulders.  I close my eyes to remember.  Breathing and reopening my senses. What did I ……..

See……..
Sunsets so spectacular that no human could possibly imagine such a thing existed if they hadn’t witnessed one.  Thank you Universe! The lighting of the Parthenon from a rooftop restaurant as the sky turned pink.  Stunning red cliffs.  Barren hills. What I didn’t see….policemen.

Smell……
Donkey.  Wherever I ventured in Santorini it was clear when I was getting close. Earthy. Real. Spices. Lit candles in the churches.  A variety of olive oil soaps as I selected my favorite one.

Taste…….
More Greek salads in one week then I believe I have had in my life.  Each with its own subtle variation in flavor.  Feta. Olives. Honey. The saltiness of the Mediterranean.  A shot of grappa at lunch courtesy of the waiter.  My late afternoon cappuccino fredos. Crazy Donkey beer.

Hear……
A bird that sings in the middle of the night as I lie there hoping to at some point actually sleep.  Ringing church bells as I open my eyes on Sunday.  Greek.  Lots of Greek.  And since I speak not one word of the language, while the vendors talked at me as I strolled by, their voices became more of a serenade.  It allowed me to hear without listening. What I didn’t hear…..any honking of horns even in rush hour. The sound of civilized traffic.
                                                                                                                                 
Feel…….
The exhilaration of a pack of mules thundering past me as I flattened myself against the wall, their tails brushing me as the earth beneath shook.  The warmth of the people.  Their disbelief of our current election. The burning of my quads and pounding of my heart as I walked the final steps of a 550 step climb.  The buoyancy of floating on my back.  The heat of the sun.  The speed of the taxi rides as laws such as speeding are not enforced (ah yes….no policemen)

Can I remain as open to sensation here, back in my daily schedule?  I am setting this as my intention.  To lie in bed each night, close my eyes and remember what I saw, heard, smelled, tasted and felt that day.  To experience life by living it with all of my senses.  Not allowing all of the ‘doing’ and ‘thinking’ to shut out the intensity of feeling. 

Well tonight will be easy.  My friend is in town and treated me to a morning at the Korean Spa.  Now that’s a true deep dive into sensation.  Lying there with a towel covering only my eyes, being scrubbed from head to toe (including places I didn’t even know I had), doused with hot water and lathered with scented oils I thought to myself……yes I am most certainly alive!

What did you experience today?  Close your eyes and remember. 

Hello full moon,
SARAH

Sunday, October 2, 2016

......bathing in being

Yogis,

Greece, here I come! The bags are packed and the Uber app is downloaded (am I the last one on earth?).  Ready to fly out shortly for eight glorious days.
A trip prompted by my college roommate stationed in Athens for three years. With each assignment she has had over the years, I hoped to visit and never made it happen. But this time I visualized, said aloud I was going and then took the leap. Picked a date and booked the flights. 

Then it was time to plan the trip.  Various suggestions came my way.  A three day bus trip to several archaeological sites.  A day long ferry that visited three islands.  Mykonos, Crete, Delphi, Rhodes……. All must sees. I began feeling overwhelmed.  Picturing getting up each day to rush to some form of transportation to get me to my next destination.  Buses, planes and boats. Looking at and hearing a lot of history and then dropping into bed at night. It didn’t feel right.

We settled on having only two locations so we can unpack and stay. Athens and Santorini. Ok, first decision made. But then what?

The last few weeks have gone by. I thought maybe I should buy a book on Greece. Trip Advisor could tell me what I shouldn’t miss. I could call friends who have gone. But I did nothing. Nothing. Everyone I told about the trip has asked what we are going to ‘do’ there.  I had no answers.

It finally hit me. I don’t want to ‘do’ Greece.  I want to ‘experience’ Greece.  I want to soak in her energy. 

My life at home requires quite a bit of doing so it takes consistent conscious effort to find the space for experiencing. Reserving the sacred time each day to live life as a human ‘be-ing’. When deep in the ‘doing’ the senses dull. When bathing in ‘being’ they bloom to become the gateway to experiencing life.

So I leave with no plans. No expectations. I want to rise when it feels right. Wander the streets and the shops. Sit in the cafes. Smell the olive oils and cheeses and float at least once in the Mediterranean Sea.  Climb the steps and sit in the temples. A blank canvas lies ahead on which the colors, smells, tastes and sounds will weave together to create a feeling sense. I want to feel Greece. 

So there will be no post next Sunday as I will still be there……perhaps eating a Greek salad and watching the sunset.

Greece, here I come,
SARAH