There is a saying that “you teach what you need.” I have found that to be true so many times
over these last several years. And it
certainly held true these last two weeks…….
Last week the topic was listening within. Becoming quiet enough to hear the directions
being provided by the heart. Turning off
the TV, radio, computer and music to hear your own inner voice.
This week we moved up to the third eye, Ajna chakra, where
we wipe away the cloudy haze created by our perceptions, in order to see
clearly. To see what is right here. Seeing what is real. Inner vision.
About two weeks ago the back of my knee started feeling
sore. It would come and go, but each
time it returned it was a little more painful.
It began to shift – sometimes up the leg and sometimes down into the
calf. But I continued on. “I have worked my way through this
before. No problem!”
Three days of running this week, 6 classes and 4 home practices later….it’s
even worse. What a surprise. But it’s Friday! My day to go to Down Dog! I’ll just take it easy (in the 95 degree room
doing power yoga, culminating with 5 wheels J). I’ll rub some Indian Balm on the back of my
leg to loosen it up. And so I did, and
off I went.
Halfway through class the back of my leg began to
tingle. The tingle then became
heat. And within 30 minutes the entire back
of my leg felt as if it was engulfed in flames!!! Oh my Gosh – as suddenly I remembered the
balm and the fact that it was made with all heating herbs – clove, cinnamon,
camphor etc. – while I heated it up to a
searing 95. Wow.
By the time I got back for “time for me” there certainly
wasn’t going to be any dancing. My leg
felt dead. I lay on the bed instead to quiet
down and write and what flowed out was that I was merely paying lip service to everything
I had taught these two weeks. I know my
body inside and out. I had been hearing clearly
what it was saying, but didn’t like what I heard. I remembered the little voice quietly saying
I should skip class but I didn’t want to listen. I could see exactly what was happening all
week, but didn’t like what I saw. Easier
to look away and just keep pushing forward.
How often do we do that?
We can do that – not only with physical issues, but
emotional as well. We hear and see what
is right for us, and still move in the opposite direction. Rationalizing. Talking our self out of it. Giving the reins back to the mind. But sooner or later it catches up with
us. The signs get stronger and the
messages louder, until eventually they take us down. Illness, injury, sadness or general sense of being
disconnected. Foggy about where we are,
how we got there and which way to go.
For me this week that inner voice had to turn the volume way
up to get my attention. But now that it
has me I have tuned back in. I have slowed waaaaayyyyyyy down.
Mindful movement. Sitting in my
healing garden next to my friend Comfrey – the muscle/bone healer. Re-establishing my earth connection as I
write this from my grass pod in the circle.
Hearing the call of the crows and soaking in the sun’s late afternoon rays. The cardinals daring to come just a little closer
than usual. Noticing this moment…..and
listening for what it has to tell me.
And look what welcomed me when I walked out first thing this
morning!
She’s not Bunny Rabbit, but a new friend. Time to start working my magic!
Just from the act of noticing and allowing, the healing has
begun,
SARAH
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